Catholicism isn’t gonna hold you back for much longer. The fact that you admit that you enjoy this means that there’s a lot of cracks that your faith won’t be able to fill. You’re the same as a drug addict that continues to say that they have their drug use under control or that they can’t possibly be a drug addict because they’re not that stupid.
That guilt’s barely holding you back now. Soon, it’ll barely be an afterthought.
[ Perhaps, there is some truth to that. Perhaps, there is nothing that can be done and this prison is no more than a place to repeat the sins of the past. Perhaps, there will be nothing to stop the growing darkness that is filling his emptiness. The emptiness that used to feel comfortable, neutral, and nothing. It tastes like malice and swallows up all light that touches the darker corners. ]
[ No. He already decided that he will drag Kirei Kotomine and himself toward the light. He already decided that he would do that; even if there is a small bit of enjoyment...
The fact I can admit I enjoy myself means that I am contrite, Sakutarou Oda. I do not need to tell you the truth of my feelings or my guilt. There would be no reason for it if my faith did not tell me so.
I am no monster. And if you believe me to be one, that means you care about others enough to try to stop me, is that not so?
Confused? I suppose you would be. I shall tell you less, because there is no point to it if nothing is learned. You only feel beaten down and come to no answer. Even cornering you does nothing. That is hardly helpful to either one of us. So, there's no reason for it, is that not right?
[ it takes a while for odasaku to respond, because he has no idea how to. it’s not like kei is wrong, but it’s still annoying that he has to say it in such a condescending way. it’s irritating that he has to feel like something is being slowly stabbed in his side. ]
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That's right.
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Because Catholics don’t exactly like poking and twisting at people’s insecurities for fun, right?
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It is not something we particularly enjoy. [ Nor should enjoy. ] Certainly full of questions now. That's a change.
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But your reasoning is really flawed.
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I do believe I've mentioned often that you should take care of your health more.
But my reasoning's flawed?
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Catholicism isn’t gonna hold you back for much longer. The fact that you admit that you enjoy this means that there’s a lot of cracks that your faith won’t be able to fill. You’re the same as a drug addict that continues to say that they have their drug use under control or that they can’t possibly be a drug addict because they’re not that stupid.
That guilt’s barely holding you back now. Soon, it’ll barely be an afterthought.
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'ch. ]
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I am no monster. And if you believe me to be one, that means you care about others enough to try to stop me, is that not so?
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But you’re not as good of a man as some believe you are.
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Who is?
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No one.
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No. [ But also right. ]
No one is as good a man as others see them.
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Have I ever told you a lie?
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I suppose you would be.
I shall tell you less, because there is no point to it if nothing is learned.
You only feel beaten down and come to no answer.
Even cornering you does nothing.
That is hardly helpful to either one of us.
So, there's no reason for it, is that not right?
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Do as you like, then. I don’t care.
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I hope you continue to sleep well, Odasaku.
It is nice to talk to a well-rested you.
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Indeed, as you wish.
You can be as demanding as you like.
[ Because it means you have grounds you will not give up. ]
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But we’re not friends.
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I much prefer it that way.
If I was your friend, I don't think I could get this close.
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