dazai and oda pcs catch all

[odasaku]

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[guileturncoat]

[Well, if he's alright, then.]

I would be tempted to take it. There's a lot of things I would love to have the chance to redo.

[odasaku]

[ hmm. ] Was last week’s motive another offer that you would’ve taken?

[guileturncoat]

Not that one, no.

[odasaku]

Guess that makes sense. Every person has something they wish to undo or change—not everyone has someone they want dead.

[ he sighs, sitting down on the couch. ]

But what if no one takes the bait again, like last week? The Foundation already sent you a first warning, no?

[guileturncoat]

Then I just have to make a really tough game to make up for it.

[odasaku]

I see.

[ a pause. ]

What will happen to you if you continue to not comply with what they want? [ yeah. he heard from atsushi. ]

[guileturncoat]

I dunno, what happens if you keep screwing Giriko in the confessions room?

[Yes he is deflecting and avoiding the question.]

[odasaku]

[ well that gets him to instinctively cross his arms. can’t look at the bruising on his wrists then! ]

I didn’t think she’d take me seriously. [ he gulps, trying to swallow his shame again. ] But that’s not the point.

[guileturncoat]

That is the point! You're a hot mess, you know that?

[He seems slightly irritated, but yes it is mostly to avoid the previous conversation.]

[odasaku]

Don’t derail the subject, Dazai. I’ll make whatever bad decisions I want.

[ GOD WHAT IS IT WITH EVERYONE MAKING HIM TURN RED TONIGHT. ]

[guileturncoat]

And I can still judge you for them! If you really want something like that, at least go for someone who might not bite your dick off. Like me, or Saki-san, or someone like that.

[YEAH HE DEFINITELY JUST SAID THAT]

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[odasaku]

She didn’t get anywhere close to that.

[ eyeroll. however, he does note that dazai added himself into those suggestions for “better options” and he’s. ???? ]

Saki has better taste. And you— [ he pauses. wait, didn’t atsushi say— ]

[odasaku]

[ oh god.

oh no.

oda immediately looks away, preferring to focus on something else. his lap, for example, or maybe the books or dazai’s desk! anything but dazai. ]

I’m... not the Oda Sakunosuke you want. [ he looks down, frowning. ] I don’t want to hurt you like that.

[guileturncoat]

[Oh.

Oh that answer hurts a little.

But Dazai quickly covers that up by walking away from Oda to go focus on something else. Like one of the stacks of paper piling up in his office now.]

Of course you aren't, and I didn't expect you to say "wow, okay, let's go jump into your bed right now!" The point is that I would still be a better option for you than Giriko, even with that personal hurdle to get over.

[The rejection stings a lot, but he can at least pretend like it doesn't.]

[odasaku]

I guess I can’t disagree.

[ he huffs, trying to ignore the way that dazai is trying to hide the obvious hurt from the ]

But I just don’t want to be a replacement or live in his shadow. [ he pauses, thinking. ] If I make a bad decision with you, it’s gotta be one we both enjoy.

[guileturncoat]

[Give him a moment, his brain is catching up with what Oda just said.]

...

Are you saying you would, if you thought I wasn't comparing you to him?

[odasaku]

[ without any hesitation: ]

Yeah.

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[guileturncoat]

[He. Actually has to consider his options here for a moment. Because he wasn't expecting it to ever be a possibility.]

[guileturncoat]

You're probably all screwed out for tonight anyway.

[YEP. Gonna put it off for another day. Maybe to get more time to show Oda that he's not seeing Oda as 'replacement Odasaku'.]

[odasaku]

I wouldn’t have agreed to it tonight.

[ he is screwed out for the night. the whole week, at least. the exhaustion is more obvious now that he’s let his guard down. ]

Though I don’t see what any of those spin the in spin the bottle saw in me, really. [ BIG SIGH ]

[guileturncoat]

What's not to see? You're calm, reliable, and you look like you know what you're doing. In the middle of something chaotic like this game, that kind of a presence is reassuring. It's the same with Saki-san too, though I think enough people here have mommy issues that they see her as a replacement mom than as someone to be with.

[odasaku]

As if I know what I’m doing.

[ he has never known what he’s doing a single day of his life. ANYWAYS. ]

Saki’s nice. I’m glad people like her.

[guileturncoat]

And you're not glad people like you?

[Hi yes, he's bringing it back to that. Appreciate that people look up to you, Oda.]

[odasaku]

There’s not much to like besides assumptions that aren’t true.

[ shrug!? ]

I’m not interesting.

[guileturncoat]

That's not true either.

[He's just going to slide on over to the other couch now, inviting a friendly conversation while respecting Oda's previous statements enough not to invade his space too much.]

But humor me, and tell me about yourself.

[This is another Oda, not 'his Odasaku', so they might as well start off like they don't know each other.]